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Monday, May 30, 2005
three day
Just a quick one. Need to give a moment to the men and women, boys and girls who have given their life, not just for this country, but in the name of freedom around the world.
Second, if I ever run a business, I'm going to make every weekend a three-day. M-Th, just make all the working days 10 hours, which isn't bad once you get used to it. But then again, whatever customer I have will want to get in touch on Friday of course... damn bastards.
There I go calling imaginary people bastards again.
[ drainpip ] | 7:55 AM | 1 comments
Saturday, May 21, 2005
seemingly in spite of life
So I'm absolutely five billion miles away from where I thought I would be at age 26 when I was a wee lad. I wanted nothing more than to be a fighter pilot - what kid doesn't that sees the Thunderbirds and Blue Angels within the span of a week at age 12? I traveled along that path for so long that I think I might have messed up that time of your life that you can go off to college without responsibilities tying you down. Yes I know it's never too late to go back, but in all honesty, I'm not going to. High school was so damn easy that when I got to college - and a damn good one at that - I was completely overwhelmed. Not in a "I don't get it" sort of way, but in a time management and not to mention priority shift sort of way. I'm cool with saying that my selfishness for my own entertainment was far more important than sitting down and programming some shitty algorithm for a few hours. My parent's couldn't afford the pilot program (it was only 30k more, geeze), so I stuck it out with Computer Science - big mistake. Inevitably I dropped out... wandered for years doing what needs to be done to survive. Hell, I've gotten kinda good at that, I'm even living comfortably for lower class.
It wasn't until a year after I dropped out that I figured out exactly what I was going to do... write and direct films, yeah good choice. I might as well go for the presidency (which many reading this would say anyone could now hehe, that's neither here nor there). That was it, a sort of dream... until I came across Curt. This guy brought such voracity into everything he does, that it's impossible to not get something done while he's around. It was sheer willpower that we stumbled through our first feature... from there shorts... still nothing really worth mentioning. I'm back in this feeling of failure, but then I remember that for some people this type of thing takes more years than I've got in so far.
I mean, how many movies, books, songs and all the rest do we need to come across to realize that everyone else is just making it up as they go as well? We're all pretty much relying on good timing and our debonair smile. So here's the conclusion I've come to after about 10 years of pure lackadaisical lifestyle: just have a good time man, cause you don't got that much more time left.
[ drainpip ] | 9:20 AM | 3 comments
Monday, May 16, 2005
the end of the middle
I've been counting down to Ep3 now for... oh, about 25 years. I was born after A New Hope was released, and I'm sure I never saw Empire or Jedi in the theaters, but I still grew up with them. I'm not sure if anyone outside a certain age range understands. The kids that are now growing up with the prequals sure as hell don't. What Lucas has done (right or wrong in your mind) is incredible when you sit down and think about it. He has literally changed the way films are made, edited, distributed - completely revolutionized the pre-post production process and of course inspired millions of his fans to go out and do likewise in whatever medium they so choose. Being one of those fans, I don't think I have the chance to say this very often, but thank you. I haven't even seen Ep3 yet and I know I'm going to love it. Thanks for setting out the path for everyone and showing that it's really true - anything is possible.
[ drainpip ] | 8:42 PM | 1 comments
Saturday, May 14, 2005
all this talk
I just had to redo mine - always been a fan of hyper-minimalist, I like it so far... do you?
[ drainpip ] | 11:24 PM | 2 comments
Thursday, May 12, 2005
right where it belongs
see the animal in his cage that you built
are you sure what side you're on?
better not look it too closely in the eye
are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
see the safety of the life you have built
everything where it belongs
feel the hollowness inside of your heart
and it's all... right where it belongs
what if everything around you...
isn't quite as it seems?
what if all the world you think you know...
is an elaborate dream?
and if you look at your reflection...
is it all you want be?
what if you could right throught he cracks...
would find yourself, find yourself afraid to see?
what if all the worlds inside of your head...
just creations of your own?
the devils and your guns all the living and the dead
and you really are alone.
you can live in this illusion
you can choose to believe
you keep looking but you can't find the words
are you hiding in the trees?
what if everything around you...
isn't quite as it seems?
what if all the world you used to know...
is an elaborate dream?
and if you look at your reflection...
is it all you want to be?
what if you could look right through the cracks...
would you find yourself, find yourself afraid to see?
-Trent Reznor
[ drainpip ] | 10:56 PM | 1 comments
Thursday, May 05, 2005
amalgamation wishes
It's been an odd few weeks. Every single Thursday I wake up and go to work, then halfway through the day I realize it's Thursday - rather than Wednesday - get really happy then move on with my Friday. I suppose that's better than thinking it's Friday then getting bummed out. It's just that the days are going by fast and I'm not too sure exactly what's happening. Time and life are sort of spinning up and keeping pace as if this is the way it will be forevermore. I can sit down and think of all the things that I am not doing to travel toward my dreams and think of more reasons why not to bother. It's an easy thing to look on the darker side of things. It's certainly easier than being excited and positive about everything in life... and I'm a positive guy. I suppose that I'm focusing on the negative things, things I would have done differently, relationships I could change on a whim. What if's plague the mind of the mediocre, and this is something I never thought I would be, but fast I see myself approaching this gate... the warm comfort of it is inviting. To replace bliss with laziness seems to be the average American's modus operandi, our dream has been lost by the wayside of lush living. I want to write, I want to create films, I want to be in love again... bliss...
[ drainpip ] | 9:30 PM | 1 comments
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